Defeated!

This week’s blog suggestion was brought to you by my friend The Literary Noob. She challenged me to write about a Battle Royale between Bill Nye, Neil DeGrasse Tyson, Michio Kaku, Carl Sagan, and Stephen Hawking. I must admit, this is the topic I hoped would win. Write a fun slap-stick story about a few of my favorite scientists? Hell ya, that is usually right up my alley. Unfortunately I find myself drawing a blank. Vague snippets of scenes with Tyson as the Hulk and Hawking as a bond villain waft by like ghosts in the fog, but no cohesive story will form. I’ve been defeated. Not like the fifteen minutes late, like last week defeated, but completely beat. I asked for a topic I couldn’t write about and the Noob obliged. You win. I can’t write about my heroes duking it out.

At least, not today. Maybe tomorrow, or the next day, but not now. Right now I am too busy fighting one of my two major inner demons, depression. I’m exhausted just working up the motivation to write these few words. Each tap of my keyboard is a struggle against the demon’s insistent whispers of “Who cares. Why bother. It’s a waste of time.” Depression is like an auto-immune disorder of the ego; it attacks the one thing that is meant to protect your mental health—the will to get better. Overcoming depression is as simple as deciding to be happy, just like overcoming alcoholism is a simple as not picking up another beer. Perhaps we should have depression support groups like AA, where we have a sponsor to call and get chits for not succumbing. Hmmm…maybe I’ll work on a 12 step program.

Anyway, thanks for reading. I’ll see you next week.

~Oz